Long Time No See

Wow it's been a good minute since I've done anything with this blog.

I had decided to stop everything Gyaru related until I got my life in order and it has gotten somewhat organized since last year. My mother is still the biggest liar I've known though. Shes completely full of herself. She tells my sister and I that we are on our own, but then turns around and says that we need to move in with her and my god mother to help them with the fucking mortgage. Really tho? 

So I'm living in my god mom's house and things are decent. 

I've finished my spring semester and I am officially a sophomore in College.

I'm looking for a new job because the theme park I was working for refuses to give me proper hours.

And I got a shorter hair cut for the first time in four years. It was mid-back and now its shoulder length.

I also decided to let my natural hair grow out! I've had relaxers since I was 3 and never knew what my natural hair looked like. It's hard for me because I've had straight long hair for 18 years and to now change from that to short and curly takes some getting used to.

I want to continue practicing Gyaru style but with my natural hair, not getting paid enough, living with an ass of a mother, and going through an emotional break down....

But I miss Gyaru so much.

I will practice Gyaru again.

I don't know when, but it's going to be glorious when I come back.

Love & Peace,

Rinny Miller

My Mom

Today I found out that my mother is leaving. She didn't even have the balls to say it to my face. I had to hear it from my sister.

Some may say that it's about time she backed out of me and my sister's lives and I should be grateful for her doing as much as she did.

I don't care. I feel so abandoned. For the longest time she has purposely sheltered me and gave me everything that I could have possibly needed so I wouldn't have to worry. 

But that wasn't what I wanted.

I wanted to get a job and work for everything I got and I wanted to do things on my own so that I couldn't blame anybody but myself for failing. 

I wanted to be able to take care of myself and be prepared for when she left.

Now I feel shitty for believing anything she's said for the past four years. She's up and left us before and I should have known she would do it again. The only reason I moved to Colorado was her. We don't know anyone out here. I wanted to be closer to her and make up for the lost times. I'm so fucking stupid.

All my plans for the next two years are shot because I don't know how I'm going to get a job to pay for the $1200 rent other than to drop out of college. I don't have any job experience because when I tried to get one, my mom would tell me I couldn't while I was living with her and that I should focus on my education. Well my one semester of college isn't going to help pay bills now. All of the money I've saved for going to Japan is going to be spent on covering the rent for the next five months. 

I feel pathetic because I'm finally going to be able to get a job and support myself but I'm losing the one parent I have in the process. I should be happy right? I can do what I want and not be bothered anymore. I guess I'll just have to suck it up and get out of my feeling with this one. 

I've been looking for apartments closer to our campus and making a list of things we can do to cut down on costs for now. That also means cutting down on Gyaru/Osharee/Lolita related purchases. I can deal with that though. I've got enough stock to last a good year. 

 I'm just pissed that she pulls this now when I have six classes for the spring semester.

 I'm going to go do my nails and hair to calm me down.

Love & Peace,

Rinny

Harajuku Snapshot Contest~I Won!!

I won the contest for Miss Harajuku Snapshot!

Love & Peace,
Rinny

Last Week of Classes!!! WOOT!!

So this week is the last week of the fall semester!!!!! YEA!!!!

Right now I'm kinda stressed because I have an 8 page paper due on Thursday and I haven't even started on it. Plus I still have to study for six other finals.......T__T. But it is my own fault. I love procrastinating. It makes me feel awesome!!

Also I bought a few new things from Forever 21 and Ebay cause I couldn't help myself. $200 gone in less than 3 days! I wish I had a job..... Enough self pity! I bought a few cute shirts and a nice sweater from Forever along with gold and black jewelry cause I don't have enough gold. 

From Ebay I got these!!

 

A Dark Brown Wig!! 

This is my first wig ever!!!

(Also got a bang piece)

 

 I got the Beige one cause I already have a Black one.

I got an Usamimi along with new clear lens glasses cause my sister sat on mine and broke them.

And I finally have an Infinity Scarf!!

Some might wonder why I'm flippin out over this basic shit, but it's because I've wanted these things for the longest time and put off getting them to give things to people who don't really have much. A.K.A My Family

My Grandmother is coming to Colorado for the Christmas!!! I can't wait till she gets here. She's a Floridian so I don't know if I'm gonna be able to get her in the snow....but I'll try my damnedest!

I also have to get an SD card before the end of the year so I can use my camera. T__T I'm gonna be so broke by January...

Well thats all for now. I'll try to post a vid reviewing all of the things I was supposed to be reviewing by next week. The key word is try.....lols!

Love & Peace,

Rinny